This and That

I apologize in advance for not proof reading this. Just gloss over any errors you might find. Bed is calling and it is late.

• I've been having trouble sleeping at night. I've had lots of dreams, many of which I would consider bad. A few of the more disturbing dreams have involved my dad and miscarrying (thankfully both things are never together in a dream). Fun times. Last night, for instance, I had the most vivid dream that I woke up bleeding heavily. I can remember sobbing hysterically and making myself sick with the sadness of losing another pregnancy. Is.aac finally woke me up around 3:30 am to ask me if I was okay. I had been making strange noises for about a half an hour at that point. I was awake for hours afterward, willing myself to go back to sleep but desperately afraid that if I did, I'd fall back into that horrible dream. This morning, I nearly lost my shit when I wiped and saw light pink. It took me a moment to realize that the pink was just my finger showing through the wet toilet paper. Ahem. It shook me up anyway.
• Julie asked if I was doing any prenatal screening. Yes, I am. I am doing the "Integrated Prenatal Screenings." Basically, they take the NT measurement and blood work during the first and second trimesters to calculate risks. My clinic doesn't give results from the screening until you have the results on the second trimester blood work. My risk assessment starts out at about a 1:200 simply because I am 38 years old. I figure if our screening results give me around that number or better then I will be satisfied. (although "better" would certainly be...um, better) The second tri blood draw will be November 5. I should know the results 7-10 days later.
• The boys turn 3 in less than 10 days. Holy cow. I finally broke down and bought some birthday gifts for them today. I haven't planned anything as far as a party goes. It will probably be a quiet family event the Saturday following their birthday.
• I also ordered their Halloween costumes. I picked out that super hero costumes. They are, after all, pretty damn super if I do say so myself. :-)
• I got flowers at work the other day. They were from the family of a former student who is now a senior in high school. Along with the flowers was a little note from the student that said he still thinks of me and considers me his best teacher ever. My heart turned to mush. Sure made me feel a bit guilty for having to punish my third period with a class wide detention earlier in the day...
• Perhaps I might be a bit moody?
• The best food ev-ah this week was some lumpia and pancit that Is.aac picked up from this little hole in the wall place down the street. OMG. I have been craving that stuff ever since.
• I watched Guiliana and Bill the other day. It was the IVF episode. They were flying so high and so positive things were going to work out for them that I was afraid FOR them. I didn't want to see them crash if things didn't work out the way they hoped. At the end of the episode they get the news that she is pregnant. It just about broke my heart for them when I later read on a gossip site that she had a miscarriage at 8 weeks. To think the whole emotional roller coaster is going to be played out for all to see on television makes me a bit sick. I don't think I am going to be able to watch again.
• Baby No.ah, from next door, had a permanent catheter placed a little over a week ago. Things were going so well for him, there was the start of the discharge discussions happening. On Thursday, he developed a severe abdominal fungal infection, so they had to remove the catheter. He's now on antibiotics for 14-21 days! and has to have hemo.dialysis until the infection is completely cleared. The bad thing is that the NICU he is in (in a top children's hospital) has never had to do hemo.dialysis before--those patients are older and in the PICU. The hope is that they can figure it all out so he can stay in the NICU rather than being transferred to the PICU. My neighbor said they've had just about ever doctor and nurse come by their isolation room to see what is going on. (As those of us who have spent time in a hospital know, it is NEVER good to be the ward novelty.) The good news is that he's had several hemo.dialysis sessions since they removed his catheter, and all is looking as good as can be expected so far.