The OB finally called me yesterday to tell me the "stat" results of last Monday's beta. Apparently, "stat" means results will be in a week later.
It was 214.
Of course they want me to test again and chase the number back to 0. I go pick up the slip tomorrow or Thursday, depending on if I can make it there after therapy tomorrow.
I took an hpt today. Still positive. Grr. It's light, though, so I am hoping that the next beta will be close enough to zero that I won't have to do another. Hopefully Friday will be enough time to get me there.
I just want it all over.
I want to be able to squash the devil in my head that has begun to chant maybe lightening can strike again...maybe I'll get another positive soon. It can happen. It just did.
That line of thinking is going to lead to nowhere good.
Sigh.
I don't blame you for wanting this chapter closed. Here's to hoping for a new, much happier chapter soon.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteI hate that these losses get drug out for so long. I'm hoping your beta came back low enough that it was your last one. Always thinking of you!
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