Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Recovering

Thank you, everyone, for the kind words! I appreciate each and every one. You guys rock.

I am feeling a lot better today. I've had about 7 calls from various doctors/the one day clinic checking on me. I must have really freaked them out yesterday. My hives are almost completely gone. I still have a few remnants on my neck, but that is it. My doctor and I decided that I didn't need the steroid course because of how few I have now. I am glad about that.

I did learn a little more about what was actually done. My RE said today that my uterus was fused to my abdomen wall slightly above my belly button. No wonder I was having so much pain! He was able to remove the scar tissue and adhesions and now my uterus is back where it should be. He said it took him nearly an hour and a half to clean up just my uterus. The hysteroscopy showed that my uterus was "beautiful" on the inside, so that is great news.

Makes me wonder what kind of hell I'd be in if I actually did get pregnant before this!

I go in for my post op appointment with him next week. He said he'd draw me pictures to show me the odd placement of my right tube at that time. He again said he was very surprised about where and how it was fused to my intestines. He had never seen anything like it apparently. There I go again, being a medical marvel. Sigh.

I am sore around my belly button and on my right side, which makes sense because that was where most of the work was done. I can now get out of bed and get to the bathroom without too much pain, but I am still doubled over when I walk. I am sporting the new hunchbacked look. Jealous? I am contemplating taking another day off of work tomorrow to recover a little more. I haven't fully decided that yet. We shall see.

Another thought: The person who invented pain medication should be sainted, that's for damn sure.

Thanks again for the comments. I am slowly going through them and writing back to you to thank you in "person". It may take me a while but I'll get there. :-)

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Yuck

A small idea of what my hives looked like.


Now picture them all over my trunk (both front and back), neck, arms, legs, palms, and soles of my feet.

Yuck. They are going away a bit at a time.

I almost forgot to mention that they took pictures of my hives before they'd let me leave. Imagine me in my bra and undies, doubled over in pain, and the stupid nurse sticking my name/identification sticker to various parts of my body and snapping shots! he even stuck the ID sticker to my belly button bandage at one point - um, ouch! I swear I can't make this shit up. No one would believe it!

Now, I need to get rid of this freaking pain. Ouch!

Done

Hoping this makes sense!

You know how nothing that I do is every "the easy way," right? Well today was no different. It has been a long 24 hours. I'm trying to convince myself that it can only get better. Because dude. Today sucked.

It started last night. I had to vaginally insert two pills of misoprostal to help soften my cervix for the hysteroscopy today. I was mildly concerned, because I had used this medication before, and I had had terrible cramping. The RE assured me that this time would be different. I was only using half the dosage from before and there was nothing in my uterus that my body would try to dispel. Okay, I thought. And for the most part, he was right. I didn't have uterine cramping. Instead I had cramping from the onslaught of diarrhea and was up every hour on the hour all night long shitting my brains out. I suppose the silver lining to that would be that I had to have been nice and cleaned out for the actual procedure. But, man. It was BAD.

We headed for the hospital right on time, which was really good for me. (I have to tell you though. It was very odd to be up and moving around town when it is pitch dark outside.) Once we got there, we waited for 40 minutes before they actually took me back to the pre-op area.

Where I had to pee in a cup so they could give me a pregnancy test. Blah. Rub salt in the wound, people.

Anyway, I was finally taken back to the operating room and all went black. (got to love drugs)

That is when things got even more interesting...

They found lots of scar tissue from the c-section. My uterus was higher than it should have been and fused with scar tissue in place. He cut through all of that and my uterus "dropped" back into its proper place. Apparently there were lots of adhesions, which he removed. He did take my left tube and contemplated taking my right tube. Righty was fused to my intestines and was pointed up instead of down. He was was pretty surprised about that because my hsg (the dye test to see if tubes are open) didn't really reflect what he saw when he got in there. In the end he left the right tube and said there is a small chance that it could be workable.

He did say IVF was his recommendation. So much for actual sex to make a baby.

While in the operating room, I developed three hives. One on my neck and two on my arms. They gave me benadryl and put me under the warming blanket. That was probably the worst thing they could have done. By the time I had made it into recovery, I was completely covered in hives. They thought that it was a reaction to an antibiotic I was given. They were quite freaked about how I looked and kept checking my throat and breathing which stayed fine. But, they wouldn't give me pain meds because they were afraid of the reaction I was having.

For an hour and a half I had no pain meds. I was dying.

They finally gave me some and released me after a couple of doses of steroids which strict instructions to call 911 if my breathing was affected in any way. It was sometime around 3, I think.

We had fun with my pain medication at home, too. I took in the script last night and told them we'd pick it up this afternoon. The pharmacy's computers crashed, so they couldn't finish orders. Is.aac picked up the paper script and told them he was taking it to another pharmacy. Unfortunately, my insurance company denied the request because it thought I had already filled the prescription at pharmacy #1. They weren't going to give me pain meds until April 1st! Oh hell, no! Finally, I got home pain meds about a half an hour ago.

It has been a rough day, but I am feeling better now. I am super sore in my abdomen area and my throat hurts like hell (but I can breathe). The hives are starting to go down more and I'll start a short steroid cycle tomorrow to make sure they are gone for good.

Thank God for my mom. She's keeping the boys another night.

Off to play some bejewled blitz and veg. Be back tomorrow.




Sunday, March 28, 2010

These Things Are Also Good...

  • I chose to spend today in a happier place. Call it denial what you want, but it definitely worked for me. While I had moments of sadness, I did not let them rule. Go me.
  • My husband let me "sleep in" this morning. I coughed, so the sleeping in part quickly went out the window. Instead everyone just hopped on the bed with me, and we watched On Demand together for a bit after breakfast.
  • Ja.son rolls with laughter at the things he sees on television now. It makes me smile every single time. (I have been known to rewind something over and over again just to hear that laugh.)
  • The weather was beautiful--sunny yet just cool enough to enjoy the sun.
  • I spent a few hours training with my sister friends this morning. We talked and walked ten miles in two and a half hours today. I'm confident that we'll be able to finish the half marathon in the three and a half hours allotted for walkers. I feel pretty good right now, too. (I was concerned because I can't really take aspirin because of the lap on Tuesday!) I hope I still feel this good tomorrow.
  • Is.aac and I took the boys to go get their pictures taken with the Easter Bunny. Sh.awn lost his shit while on the bunny's lap, and Ja.son looked like he couldn't quite figure out what the heck was going on, but we had loads of fun talking to the bunny before and after the lap sitting. (We may try again for some better shots later in the week. Or, we might not. Who knows.)
  • I bought myself a pretty new purse...a la Coach. :-) It is a belated Christmas present from my husband. Ahem. Anywho, a little retail therapy never hurts when there is a possibility for sadness.
  • My mom was able to do a little retail therapy of her own, so I didn't feel the pull to keep her from being alone and sad. (This one is hard to explain...it isn't like I felt I had to go be with her, but I just didn't want her to be by herself if she didn't have to be.) She had a good time while she was out.
  • The boys had their first experience with lemonade this afternoon. Ja.son chugged about a third of the drink before he even acknowledged it was sour. He crinkled his nose and said, "Hmmmm..." and then dove right back in to drinking. Sh.awn wanted it in his mouth, but would let it just dribble out and wouldn't swallow. Too funny.
  • I was able to talk about my dad today and laugh at some of his crazy quirks.
  • And now, I am lying in bed. My sweet boys are sleeping in their room. My husband is next to me watching poker on television. And all is good.

Among the Sadness, This Thing Is Good.

Not his best performance, but it makes me smile every time...


Oh, and please excuse the...um, voice singing. (If you can call it that! I use the term loosely.)

Friday, March 26, 2010

Pre-Op

I went in for my pre-op consultation today. It's a good thing I shaved my legs, because I got scanned, too. (As an aside, I hate, hate, hate being covered in goop after the scans. And it always seems like he initially aims high and hits my pubic bone, which is hell of a lot better than aiming LOW!, but I get that gunk everywhere. Ugh.) Then he explained further about what he'd be doing and was surprised when I didn't have many questions. (Thank you Dr. Google!)

The plan is to free my tubes from my intestines, put everything back in its optimal place, clean up any endo he finds, and check the old ute. There is concern about my left tube and the possible hydrosalpinx, but he'll only remove my tube if it looks like it is damaged beyond repair. Interestingly, he also said he'd take a lot of color pictures for me. Yeah? So, you all may get to be super familiar with my innards by this time next week. ;-)

So, all is still a go for Tuesday, barring some freak cold/viral infection or other act of God. Not that I will experience either, right? RIGHT? Ahem.

After the appointment with the RE, I went to pre-register at the hospital. That went fine until she recognized where I work and started in with the "Isn't that the place..." questions. I was very uncomfortable and tried to tell her that, but she just kept on and on. I couldn't wait to get out of there.

My mind is on overdrive. I am freaking out that he's going to get in there and find something sinister...something that will bring my world crashing down. There is really nothing to indicate that he should find something, but my poor heart is fearing the worst.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Due

There were a few sad moments, but I made it through the day.

Can't ask for more than that.

(Well, I can...but it won't do me any good.)

Sigh.

Thank you, everyone. For everything.

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