Alone

The boys have been so funny lately. Challenging, too, for sure, but funny. Last week, they had done something that made me chuckle. Without thinking about it, I reached for the phone to call my mom. She'd chuckle about what they did, too.

It took longer than it should have, I suppose, before I remembered. She isn't there to call. No one is now. Yes, my brothers are out there (although we communicate via email if at all). My aunts, uncles, and my grandmother are there. Even very dear friends I consider more like sisters are in my life. It just isn't the same, no matter how much I love them. No one cares about my guys the way their dad and I do, accepts them without a second thought, or listens to the mundane details of our day because they care about it all. I am alone while surrounded by people.

The people I belong to are no longer here. 

It's a humbling thought. It still shakes me to my core. 

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We keep on keeping on around these parts. Not much else to do, is there?