Trying to Get Over It

Each day I let myself stay in the quiet, it gets harder to speak. I get comfortable with the uncomfortable feeling of holding things in. Eventually, it feels like I really have nothing to say anyway.

I forget that the bottleneck of emotion is eased when I allow myself the outlet. Sigh.

It's been over two weeks since I've written anything here. I've tried, too. It's time to make myself get over it.

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I have a lot on my plate right now, and I'm not sure I am handling things as well as I could--as maybe I should.

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I got a compliment about my parenting the other day. Sadly, all I could think about was how the person didn't really know all that I'm not doing. Sure, it looks like I've got a handle on that particular area, but what about all of the other areas? I am the master at beating myself up for my own lack of perfection, even though I know full well that perfection isn't possible.

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We got our pictures back today.

I think they came out pretty nice. It's damn hard to get three boys to look at the camera and smile all at the same time, especially when Jack wasn't interested in the whole picture scene at all. I'm relieved we got some good ones after all. :)

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We are now the owners of two disabled parking placards. My mom uses one to pick up the boys from school every day. I couldn't bring myself to use the other one until this last weekend.

Um, yeah.

I'm still not sure how I feel about all of that.