Saturday, May 31, 2008

Awwww.... (My Show and Tell)


Jason is on the left. Shawn is on the right.

For those of you who are here from NCLM, you can't imagine how very special this picture is for me. (Let's just say that our road to a family has been straight from Hell pretty bumpy.) There were many, many days, while we were with Shawn in the hospital, when I thought I would never have the boys back together again.

I see this picture, my worries lift, and I finally feel like a mom. Me. A mom. It feels good.



Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Okay. So I have great in-laws, too. My brother-in-law came to my work today, picked up my car, took it to get smogged, washed it, and returned it to the parking lot. ALL WHILE I WORKED! How cool is that? He took pity on me and my seriously late registration (is April 10 really 6 weeks ago?) and told me that I couldn't argue, he was just doing it. I feel more than a little guilty about it, though. I kind of feel like I should have had my crap together a little more and got it done. Sigh. I apparently take every opportunity available to beat myself up these days.

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The school psychologist has been interviewing the teachers at school and gathering information to take to the superintendent about post traumatic stress.** I was able to give a slightly different perspective than most, because I wasn't actually there when it happened, and I am able to see the effects of everything as a sort of outsider. The most striking thing I have noticed is that the rather close knit staff seems to have fractured. There are small groups of people who are still close, but there are many more outliers than there were before I left. It makes me sad to see it. There is also the feeling that blame has been directed toward the staff, not just by the community, but by the district office. I can feel that, too (although it has already been established that I do that sort of thing to myself). There have been too many staff development programs aimed at how we can detect and deter bullying for it to not feel like there is something being said indirectly. That was compounded by an in-service we had two weeks ago. The victim's name was brought up, things were said, and the end result was that most of my school's staff left the district wide meeting. It was ugly. Anyway, I am hoping that the school psychologist (who is also dealing with PTSD because he was with the victim right after he was shot) is able to help healing begin at the school.

**We were given a short questionnaire to determine our risk of PTSD. When I answered the questions about the shooting, I am not at risk. However, I answered the questions again about the babies, and I score as very high risk. Hmm...kind of knew that one was coming.

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And for all you commenters out there, I saw on another blog (forgive me when I say I can't remember where) that a question was asked for the commenters to answer. That way, you have something pretty straight forward to answer if you can't think of anything to say after posting countless comments. Anyway, if you want it, here is today's question: What kitchen appliance could you not live without and why?

My answer is my microwave. What did people do before this little technological wonder was created? I can't imagine myself trying to cook the old fashioned way, you know, on a stove, now that the boys are here. I love the ease of popping something into the microwave, blinking a few times, and viola, it is finished. Ahh, heaven.

Monday, May 26, 2008

Two things: 1) my butt is sitting on the couch right now, so I have successfully avoided the mentioned ass stuck to the toilet issue, and 2) I am finally feeling better. Let me just say a big, fat yea for both of them. This bout of IB (usually only stress induced now a days) was particularly intense, and I am thanking the porcelain gods that I was finally freed from the drama.

I hereby declare that there will be no further incidents such as the one I've just experienced. Sounds good, doesn't it?

Then so it shall be.

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Some of you may have noticed the cute little party hat on my side bar. I am participating in NaComLeavMo, or National Comment Leaving Month, from May 25th to June 25th. You can click on the icon for a detailed summary, but for the most part the rules are:

you will do your normal blog reading, but you will make sure that you leave at least 5 comments a day and regardless of how many comments you usually receive, you will return at least 1 comment by going to a commentor's blog and leaving a comment there. If you do not have any comments that day (perhaps you didn't write a new post or your blog falls into a strange, other-worldly commentless abyss), simply jump to the participant's list below and pick a new blog and leave a comment.


My personal goal is to get leave at least ten comments a day, both at blogs I frequent and new blogs, and return comments on all the comments left for me. Now, I may get a little behind on this, but I am going to give it my darndest. I am hoping to add to my blog roll when all of this is done and find many more blogs to read each day. (You know, because my life is so slow around here.)

So, dear readers, I am soliciting addresses of some of your favorite blogs. They can be any type of blog: general, fertility/infertility, parenting, crafting, or whatever. If you love it, there is a strong chance that I will, too.

Thanks!

P.S. There is nothing that says you can't join NaComLeavMo, too, if your interested!

Saturday, May 24, 2008

My Dearest Bowels,

You and I have had issues for quite some time now. I did not complain back in high school when you first took your nasty revenge on me. Wasn't that because of a break-up with my first boyfriend? Ah yes, so it was. I did not complain (much) when you acted up on my wedding night because at least you had the decency to keep our rendezvous brief. I didn't even complain the last time you visited, after my c-section, when your shenanigans fooled the hospital staff, had me quarantined by the infectious disease doctors, and even had the surgeon gleefully talking about "exploratory" surgery.

But now, dear bowels, I am complaining. I can appreciate the fact that you allowed me to escape our meeting for the past eight weeks. I realize the said weeks have been incredibly taxing and were by far the most stressful time I (well, us) have ever encountered. I was under the impression that you were granting me a reprieve from your torture--at least for this one time. I was so thankful...

And then you bestowed a wrath like no other on poor unsuspecting me.

Knocked me off my butt and placed it squarely on the toilet.

Where I have remained, save a few spare minutes, for the past 36 hours.

Yes. 3. 6. Hours.

It hasn't been fun.

Isn't it time for a truce, oh beloved bowels?

Surely all of this is getting old, right? I would greatly appreciate it if you would vacate this current little game of yours and allow me a little peace. I so need peace right now.

Stacie

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Irritable bowel sucks.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Show and Tell





My men are finally together. For good. I am still so excited that I don't know what to do with myself!

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Little Bits...

Cleared from the neurosurgeons until August. My stomach is still in knots from the anticipation about today's visit. We hadn't had a good visit to that place in so long--actually, ever. Now, let's all pray that a new trend has started from now on out!


I seriously love the people I work with. I asked for sick leave to help cover the time I was out for the Shawn crisis (I used all of this years' and next years' leave on bed rest). I needed 5 days to cover the time I was out. The first day the request was out, I had twenty-two days donated! Can you freaken believe it? It makes me all teary eyed when I think about it.


I can't seem to get enough of Shawn and his smile. It is all I can do not to squeeze him to death when he grins. My heart just sings each and every time.


I also am having a great time watching the two boys together. They hold hands, talk, and smile at each other. Shawn is definitely getting more out of the encounters than Jason, but they both seem to like being near each other as much as possible.


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And to my blogland buddies (I hope I didn't leave anyone out)...


Congrats to Topcat on the birth of little Monkey (no, that isn't his real name)!


Congrats to K for the Dis.covery Health documentary about her growing family. How cool is that? They are going to film her family pre-babies, through the birth, and afterward. It will air sometime this winter!


Maya - have fun on your trip!


Congrats to Megan and Lee on the birth of little Lila!


Congrats to Doc Grumbles for the wonderful sight of Jag's heartbeat!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Some More Cuteness

Shawn...




Jason...




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