It's Trigger Time!

Trigger is tonight at 11:00 p.m. I can’t wait to get this show on the road. There is no turning back now…it’s all or nothing after that trigger. I am so excited, I may just explode! And sometimes I think that is literally!

Things are looking mighty fine in the old ovaries at this point. At first, I was worried that I may only end up with six eggs. Now it is looking like I may end up with eight to ten eggs! Woo Who! The uterus isn’t looking too shabby, either. I have managed to thicken my lining to a healthy 9-10mms. Like I said, all is looking good in there. Hopefully this means good things will start happening to me now!

Now I am starting to think about how many embies I want transfer on Sunday or Monday. I want to be as aggressive as possible while saving myself from unnecessary pain. I want to be pregnant. I would love twins. Triplets may not be too bad, although I realize that it might bring harm to the babies’ or my health with that many. What about quads? Would I be able to reduce a pregnancy after working so hard to achieve it? Tough questions to worry about and there is not much time to think about it.

I transferred four embies on the last cycle. Two embies were transferred the time before that. Six embies were sentenced to the doom of my uterus. For awhile, that is the way I thought about my own body…the uterus o’ death. That was before all of the testing indicated that I probably have a blood clotting problem. Excuse me. I most likely have a Protein S defficiency. I am waiting for the retest results to make sure (I am assured that this will be done before my transfer). That, along with the MTHFR mutations I have, made my body a not so hot place to live. I so wish that I knew about all of that before I did the last two IVF cycles. Maybe I would have a baby in my arms at this point.

So. I am back to what to do, what to do? Stick to the lucky number four, or get even more aggressive. These are tough, tough, tough questions to ask myself. I can’t wait until there is an answer.

I pray this is the time…let it be, please.