Just Sitting Here Incubating!

Well, I am lying here actually. It is 1:20 pm and I am still in bed. Don't get me wrong, I've been up and around the house, but I still find myself migrating back to the bed. Needless to say, I am bored silly.

It gives me too much time to think this way. Think and worry. Worry item number one is that we didn't get the Protein S results yesterday. I am a little annoyed by that. I was assured the results would be here by my transfer. When I asked, I was told to check back with them in three days. Sigh. These results are so important to me...I really feel like this is the reason for the miscarriages, but I can't do anything about it until I have those results. I want to be prepared (mentally) for giving myself the daily heparin injections. Plus, I want to start the heparin as soon as possible and give my little embies every chance possible!

Worry number two is that I transferred six embies! Good God, what will I do if they all implant? The realistic side of me really doesn't see that happening. The hormonal side is freaking out!

Worry number three is the age old question of "I transferred six, but what if none of them imlant?" That would throw me over the edge in a bad way. The implications of that is that my eggs truly are old...then what?

Worry number four is that I do get pregnant. What if I miscarry yet again? What would that do to my increasingly fragile emotional state!?!

The list of worries go on and on. There are really too many to name in my little blog.

I will try to not worry too much. Easier said than done!