Humph.

I am seriously rethinking the idea that Is.aac would take Sh.awn to his pre-op appointment and both boys (with my mom's help) to the eye doctor tomorrow. I was foolish enough to think that I would have to go to work and actually make money. I have no clue as to what I was thinking. Temporary insanity?

So now, he is driving me up the freaking wall.

He has asked me three times already what he was supposed to find out tomorrow at both appointments. I think the only reason he isn't asking me the same questions right now is because I literally had to WRITE IT DOWN ON A PIECE OF PAPER FOR HIM. He didn't write it, I had to. Because his arms were broke or something.

Then he had the nerve to snap at me over something stupid.

Oh, no he di-ent. (say that with a head shake and several snaps for full effect)

His excuse was that he was nervous about tomorrow.

Holy hell, Is.aac. What do you think my life has been like the last 15 months or so? I have taken the boys to pretty much all of their appointments by myself this entire time. Granted, he did come with me to the neurosurgeon's appointments, but that is pretty much it.

Okay. Just had a thought here. I have now decided that the real reason that he is acting this way is so he doesn't have to take the boys to any other appointments on his own.

Very clever, Is.aac, but it won't work! I'm not letting you off the hook this easily.

Humph.

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Speaking of tomorrow, can I get some positive thoughts for an eye appointment that doesn't end with the words "surgery is needed" for someone?

Can I also request loads of positive vibes for Thursday? I know this should be old hat for us now, but I am intensely nervous about Thursday for many reasons, most namely the stupid vent they'll put him on during his anesthesia. Our history with vents has just not been good. Plus we fall on the wrong side of the odds way too many times for me not to be worried.

Okay. While we're at it, can we just all pray that I got freaking knocked up this cycle? I just really think I need some more good things to happen in my life (besides my family), so why not start with pregnancy. No, really. If any of you have an inside connection with anything that could sway this outcome, please give it a go. For me. Cause you like me.

Hm. That was needy, wasn't it?

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Have I said how weird things are getting at school yet? Well they are. People are just...off. Ten more days until the anniversary is behind us. Maybe then things will get back to something a little more "normal." Whatever that means at least.

Oh, and my evaluation went well. I am off the hook for another formal eval for 5 years. Yay. (Okay. This is sad, but one of my kids killed a cockroach during my lesson for the evaluation. No kidding. Eww. Let's just say that I am now afraid to bring anything home from school. Then the custodians put out some sort of bug killer crap all along the perimeter of my room. Said they'd clean it up by the next day. It's still there. It's been since Thursday afternoon.)

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I suppose that's it. I guess I'll go watch Med.ium now.