Isaac is taking Shawn back to the hospital now. I was so filled with hope. And now this.
It is just so unfair.
I'm staying with Jason. I am in no state to drive the hour it takes to get to the hospital with Shawn anyway. Plus, there is no one to watch him, so here I sit--the loser between the two of us--the one who can't get her shit together enough to be there for her son at the hospital.
I am so angry. I am scared to death, frustrated, hurt, and so much more. Why does this keep happening? Why can't they just make him healthy? What happened to the confident "this is it" crap? Why can't we just get more than a week of seeing him smile and be happy? We didn't even make it to the stupid follow-up visit this time.
Who did I piss off in this universe that finds it so necessary to keep punishing us over and over again?
Yeah. I need another baby. Sure.
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Not to nag, but have you tested? Stress can screw up your cycle temporarily, and you've got a lot going on.
I hope Shawn gets better soon,
J
Stacey... what happened?? Here's hoping all is OK.
You are NOT a loser. You are staying home, parenting. Your husband is going to the hospital, parenting. They are both parenting.
I am sending so many good thoughts to Shawn. This is very scary.
Ohhhh Stacie....ugh.. my heart is hurting for you. You know.. you can't always be super strong. Your entitled to break down.
Shawn is in my thoughts .. I too want him to just do better so you all can heal and move on.
Love and prayers sent your way..
Tracey~
Hopefully it's nothing.
Isaac will bring him home to love and cuddle as healthy as any baby could be.
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