No more testing. I am calling this cycle a fail--a big, fat, miserable fail. I am just waiting it out until my beta. Now I suck at every part of this shit.
My ass sure wishes I'd just stop everything now. I actually cried with last night's shot, it hurt so much. I made him take the first attempt out and start again for it to hurt just as bad with the second stick. I almost can't even sit today.
I guess I have to decide if I want to try this FET thing again with my other two frosties (or three if they refroze the one I didn't use this cycle) or just go with a fresh cycle. Well, that and I have to figure out where the money is going to come from, too.
Sigh.
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I'm so sorry this one didn't work out. I'd definitely do another frozen cycle over a fresh one, first. Frozens are so much easier.
You never know.
Oh Stacie, I'm so sorry.
YOU did not fail. You cannot control this situation.
Hugs!
Millions of hugs coming your way hun!
Oh, Stacie. I am so sorry. I hurt for you.
Stacie,
I am so sorry to hear this news. You did not fail at all. Super BIG hugs coming your way.
Jennifer
I am sorry. I've had a few IVF BFN's in my time and it's just rough...
xx
g
I and a hundred other women want everything to work out for you.
Soon, soon, soon.
Hugs,
-k
sweaty balls. :( I'm sorry.
I was holding out hope..
hi.
i wish i had a magic wand - there's a few things i'd do - and one of them is make you pregnant for 38 weeks with a healthy baby.
being who i am, i will hold out that one last glimmer of hope till you get the beta results.......
that said - please don't feel like you failed. NO ONE is able to get pregnant each and every single time they try (IVF included) and if i remember correctly, it seems to me that you have done 4 IVF's before this one - and they have resulted in 4 pregnancies --- correct me if i am wrong..... but i don't think i am. that's 100% on the pregnancies!
it is not statistically, a probability to have them ALL result in pregnancy (not that that helps you tons right now - but please know you did NOT fail and you do NOT suck at all aspects - you are actually pretty good at getting pregnant!)
i think before you make the decision on the next cycle, you should have a heart to heart with your RE and see which, fresh vs frozen will bring the best results for you personally. and be sure you know that you can always keep your snow babies on ice for the future. and if you don't want to have another baby after this next one (that you will have) ----- you can decide what to do with them at that point. i am not sure if they do any sort of donation program in your area.
speaking of donations - i know my RE's ofc = if you have extra meds you can donate them to the ofc and if you need meds you can ask to see if they have any that fit your protocol - have you inquired about that? it could help save a little $$$ the next go around.
i know the shots hurt, and the heart is heavy -- but hang in there for 2 more days - till you know for sure what's going on. i agree -- it would be pretty cruel if they do secretly do a beta and not tell you!!
OH* and i can't believe for one single moment that you are NOT going to test sunday morning -- i just can't believe it -- so please post and let us know.
hugs and a big bunch of support for you, lucy and ethel!
So sorry, Stacie.
Hugs. I will be thinking of you.
Huge {{{hugs}}}. Remember it is just that the cycle didn't work. You did NOT fail.
I'm so sorry sweetie! Sending you lots of love. I'm thinking about you.
*HUGS*
hundred hugs over and over.
Stacie-
You know I am always thinking about you. You did not fail that's for sure. I would definately talk with your RE about what to do next. I see a lot of women get pregnant with FET's so you might just want to "use" those snow babies first and give them the opportunity to become your little ones. Good luck and whatever you decide I will be here.
C
Hugs.
I'm sorry, Stacie.
Carrie
Oh Stacie- I am so sorry. so so sorry.
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