Blah. In true die hard ttc'er fashion, I asked the nurse if I can start cycling again when AF arrives. I don't even care how it happens--fresh or frozen. How sad is that? I just want to see an end to all of this shit (with a real, live baby at the end of course).
I am waiting for the RE to call to talk about options. At the very least I'll call them should my AF arrive before he contacts me. After my two first miscarriages, I bled approximately 4 days after I stopped PIO. Hopefully, this time around will be the same, although the nurse said it could take anywhere from 2 to 12 days with progesterone levels as high as mine are. It would be nice if AF arrived on Friday so I can go in for scans and blood work on the weekend and not miss work, but I won't be picky.
You know what? That's crap. I am going to be picky.
I declare AF to be here on Friday. Hear that universe? **shakes fist at the sky**
I also hope that my "great" estrogen levels drop quickly as well. (anyone know how quickly that happens? my levels were over 1200) If my estrogen isn't low enough on day 2/3, they'll want to put me on the pill or make me wait.
Damn it, I am tired of waiting! **shakes fist at the sky again!**
Oh, and let's not forget the wrinkle that the lab will be closed the week before and week after Christmas. Ahem. I am all for vacations for people who work hard and all, but I lose a little sympathy when it interferes with my ever present planning.
I'm a bitch, what can I say?
But, should the universe listen and bring AF on Friday, AND make sure my estrogen is nice and low by the blood work day, AND let's throw in make sure that I have no cysts for scan day, then I have PLENTY of time to cycle before the lab closes.
Crisis solved.
A girl's gotta have a plan, or she'll go crazy.
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I am mostly okay about the negative. I am sad and angry, but I expected this. Yesterday really helped me, I think. Thank you for all your kind words. They really mean so much.
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aaaaaaaaaawwww crap!
i am so sorry. still wishin' i had that magic wand that could change so many medical related things (especially this fri for both of us!)
i hope your body and the universe cooperate for your plan. i love that you have a plan. you are a rock star stac!! and and inspiration! you show me how to pick myself up and dust myself off anytime there is adversity.
i admire that so much in you!
so many hugs are comin' your way! i am so sorry.
it will happen!!!
*shakes fist for you* Damn universe. You know, my SIL has a gf (I know!) and her name is An.gie F.aye. But whenever I text/im/etc. with my SIL and she is talking about An.gie F.aye she types AF. All I ever think of is Aunt Flow. It's not as funny to her I suppose.
*more fist shaking on your behalf*
I am so sorry :-(. *HUGS* I hope everything works out in your favor and you can go right into another cycle. Then we can be cycle buddies ;-). I pray that neither of us will ever have to endure the pain of another loss and that we will both be holding a baby in our arms in 2010.
Crap!!
That sucks.
I'm so sorry.
On to the next!
Carrie
I'm so sorry, Stacie...
Stacie,
I am sorry about the BFN. Even expected, it plain old sucks.
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Damn it!
I hope some way some how the universe will work with you and help make you a plan that works for you.
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