It's so strange. Things are going sooooo well at the moment, but I can't help to be worried that doom and gloom is around the corner. It is almost like things are going too well.
I suppose I am not used to that.
I hate that I know that bad things can happen.
I hate even more that bad things have happened, so I know just what's possible.
I hate the most that I almost expect the bad things to happen to us now.
I am trying my hardest to pull myself out of that negative space and to celebrate the successes as the come, but...well, damn it is hard to not let the overwhelming fear take over and rule my brain and heart.
Sometimes it's a battle won minute by minute, though. It's exhausting!
Sigh.
I'm on pins and needles about tomorrow.
Oh please, oh please let the good news continue.
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Is it sad that having 53!!! followers makes me giddy? It just blows my mind that 53 different people are interested in my life and what I write. It makes me feel a bit like Sally Field during the whole "You really like me!" era. :-)Thank you to every single one of you who have stopped by here to read and cheer us on over the last several weeks. I am truly grateful!
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15 comments:
Wow, 6 mature eggs!!!! That's awesome!! I can't wait to hear an update! Just keep on keepin on!!!
Can't wait to hear the news tomorrow...keeping up the prayers and crossed fingers! Love ya!
Keep enjoying the goodness as long as it comes your way!
So happy for you about your fertilization report too. I'll continue to hold a good thought for you for tomorrow.
Again, thinking of you and your family. Sending BIG vibes for fantastic news!! #140150 visitor. 40150 since I was #100000.
crossing my fingers that the good news continues! you deserve it!
Let us know ASAP tomorrow. You know the waiting is hard on me too :)
I like you!!!
And i hope the cycle keeps going well for you!
Jo
Now you have 55 followers! It is okay to be stressed, your feelings are valid. You can hope for the best while preparing for the worst.
Jan! I am hanging my head in shame! I totally suck. I PROMISE you will have something in your mail soon! I have four things to mail out to my bloggy buddies, actually. That is how royally I suck!
Celebrate! Obviously, it's not easy. But you deserve it! I'm so glad things are going well :) Can't wait to hear more news!!
Stacie, no worries! You need to be stress free. I'm just glad it didn't get lost in the mail and I looked like I was totally ungrateful by not thanking you. Really, not a problem.
I remember feeling like things were going too well. That was when we finally had Gabe.
Whoo hoo for 100%!
Hope every one is a great grower!
Hoping to hear really good fert news today! (Crossing fingers and toes!)
The wait is KILLING me!!!!!!
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