(Warning! This is a long post!)
I am sitting here alone with my thoughts a lot now. That usually isn't such a bad thing, but often my mind travels to very unfortunate places and the worries/fears come out of hiding. Well, who am I kidding, these thoughts are not exactly hiding so I suppose that I would be thinking about these things whether I was on bed rest or not. Maybe the bed rest thing just gives me more time to focus on them...
Who knows?
In an effort to give myself something neat to think about, I contacted a psychic online....
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Now before you yell at me or say how dumb I am, let me catch you up with my history with this person.
Back in December, before IVF #1, I was in a state of nervous expectation. All kinds of questions raced through my brain. I had already done three IUI's and had been trying to conceive for well over two years at that point. Now this could be the thing to get me there. Would it work? Would I finally get my dream of being pregnant?
So I heard of a
psychic on one of the support boards I visit. She was supposed to be super accurate. I looked her up and found that she would charge $7.00 (Canadian) to tell me when I would conceive. All my questions would be solved, right? Well, no, but I had hoped it would give me a little reassurance that I was doing the right thing. I was looking for anything at that point...did I say I was nervous?
I payed the money for the psychic reading and waited for my reply. Meanwhile, I started my cycle and got all the way to the retrieval. It was a dismal turn out for me. I had such high hopes but only managed to make six eggs. I was devastated. All the other women I had read about made twenty eggs it seemed. How would I ever get pregnant with just six? I was at a new low to say the least. I had a great fertilization report (all six fertilized) and when I went to the transfer on day three, they actually wanted me to come back the next day because they couldn't determine the "best" embies because they all looked so good. I started to feel a little better, but I wasn't convinced.
Then the psychic contacted me and said I would conceive/find out/or deliver in December. And, it would be a boy. (Wow, it just occurred to me that I will most likely deliver in December and I am having boys! Hmm...hadn't thought of that before!)
On day four, we transferred two beautiful embies (had one to freeze) and waited for a positive result. I found out my beta was positive the day after Christmas. I miscarried on January first. I was devastated.
So, I wrote to the psychic to tell her that I did indeed get pregnant, but I miscarried. Did she see any other babies in my future. She said I would conceive/find out/or deliver in March, but this time it was going to be a girl. She wrote me a lovely description of who she saw this daughter to be:
"When it comes to your daughter, would tell you that I see her as someone with very beautiful looks. I think that a lot of people are going to stop you when out and about and tell you how pretty she is. I think that you will find her well behaved,. shes not too loud, and has a very pretty voice. Shes someone who does not mind being in the centre of attention is not shy at all, and sometimes does seem oblivious to all the attention that she gets from complete strangers!
Shes very open and positive person, one who enjoys talking and is a very good listener. I think that you will find that shes willing to discuss pretty much anything with anyone (within reason) and often takes courses that reflect more of "nursing" type courses. The things that she chooses are always about helping people. Shes often volunteered during her teenage years, usually within a veterinarian office on the weekend to gain experience.
I see her as someone who enjoys social contact, prefers to be in activities that you learn things, like going to "girlguides/brownies" is what will appeal to her, the different badges they earn. I also see her taking first aid courses as well through them. Often asking you if she can advance her training.
When she is 18, I think that you will find that shes "scouted" and is asked to audition for a small part in a TV series which she lands no problem. This is the money she stocks away for schooling and at age 21, when the series wraps she attends university for a paramedic type course.
I think that you will find that she will often do commercials or small projects like that on the side, but likes to focus her attention as a paramedic. Often teaching first aid classes herself.
When it comes to marriage, I see her closer to 27, they will have two girls of their own."This was a perfect balance of both myself and my husband. I focused on this information. It helped get me through the difficult time after the miscarriage. March was all I could think about, and wouldn't you know it, my next ivf cycle had the beta scheduled in early March! That fit perfectly. I knew I would get pregnant because the psychic said so. (I do realize that I was a little over the edge at this point, but if you have been in this kind of situation, I am sure you understand the desperation and need to have some kind of answers. This worked for me.)
February came, had eight eggies, seven fertilized, and we transferred four on day four this time. I think my RE had decided that my eggs were going bad and was trying to get more aggressive. I didn't care. I was going to get pregnant with a girl. Well, I got my positive on March 1 and miscarried a week later. I was devastated again. Went to the RE and pushed for testing because I started to think of my body as the womb o' death.
Back to the psychic. Did she see anything that could help me? Would I ever get that baby? She told me that we were on the path to find out what was preventing me from getting pregnant (we discovered some clotting disorders) and that she saw May with a girl.
That was this pregnancy and now I am 22 weeks tomorrow. She was right about it all but the girl thing. I fully expected to see at least one girl at the ultrasound because she was so right on about everything else. That didn't happen.
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I went back to the psychic to see if she could answer a few of my questions about this pregnancy. Now I am not holding the information she said about the boys as the ultimate truth. I think I will tuck that info away to pull out in the future to just see how close she got. I am not expecting them to be exact duplicates of what she wrote or anything. I get that this is fun and not necessarily how it will be, okay? But, if you are interested, here is what she wrote this time:
"Question: This is actually my second prediction from you (you were correct about conception/find out month but not gender) so I am trying to find out about my current pregnancy. I am currently pg with twin boys. What can you tell me about them?
Answer:
BOY A
When it comes to your son would tell you hat he is someone who is very good with communication. even as a young child seems to be able to tell you what it is he wants and seems to be able to show you when he wants something just as well as trying to explain it.
I think that you will find that he is someone who likes to be helpful, I see him trying to carry the jug of milk and its being a bit heavy for him, but he is someone who wants to make sure that he does it, someone who is always trying to be the "big boy" in the house and you can always count ont he fact that he is going to do what it takes to get the job done. He is not a slacker, someone who is always on the go and trying to make sure that everything is done right.
He has good leadership skills, someone who gives good direction to people and just has a way about him that although he is "ordering' people around, it's done in a way that is respectful and fun. kids love hanging around him, he is always got a new idea for them to try. someone who is relaxed and easy going and includes everyone in the game regardless.
I think that you will find that when it comes to career paths, I see him working in the warehouse. I believe that he handles also the safety position other than working on the floor with the machinery.
When it comes to marriage I see him closer to 26, they will have two girls of their own.
BOY B
When it comes to your second son, I think that he is very similar to his brother, only a bit more on the quiet side. One who does not push or get in your face, would prefer that you come to him or approach him when your someone new. He can be a bit shy, but seems to be more accepting to new situations when he has his brother with him while they are younger.
I think that you will find that he is someone who is very kind and gentle, always has a smile on his face and can be very affectionate. I think that you will find that he is more of the "listening" type, would much rather listen to people talking, than offering information about himself right away.
He is very funny, someone who always likes to make light of a situation and has no problems with cracking jokes about an otherwise stressful situation, even if it has to do with him and something that he is involved in.
I think that you will find that he is someone who is good with people, has a way about him that make people feel important and listened to. I think that you will find that he is most comfortable in familiar surroundings.
When it comes to career paths, I see him linked to a inside sales type position.
When i comes to marriage I see him closer to 22, they will have one girl and one boy of their own.
Question: When do you see me delivering the babies?
Answer:
At just over 37 weeks, so like at 37 weeks and 3 days (something to do with the number 22 comes in as well).
Question: I would love to know if any other children/pregnancies are in our future.
Answer: GIRL - MAY - same reading as before, but updated month"
My analysis about what she wrote? Well baby A sounds more like me in personality. I tend to get drafted into the leadership roles, and I do know that people listen and follow what I suggest. I am not sure about the work part of his prediction. Wharehouse occupations seem a little outdated! Baby B sounds a lot like my husband. He is a quiet thinker, and would much rather watch people doing things and talking than participate. (That is slowly changing, though.) He is very funny and has a quick witt. The occupation part is interesting, too, because my husband is the marketing director for a company and helps with creating advertisements for the sales department. I thought the delivery time was interesting. I would love to hold on to the babies until week 37. Week 37 starts the week of Christmas. Hopefully I can go that long without having contractions. Of course, the number 22 is a little scary. Wonder what that means? I am working on week 22 now...hmmm.
Anyway, this is at least giving me something fun to think about instead of all of the scary stuff. What do you think?
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