Numb

My mom passed on February 24th...man, that is still hard to write. She passed peacefully while listening to a video of my Shawn singing "You've Got a Friend In Me." I hope that brought her some comfort...

While I know with every fiber of my being that she is no longer here-how could I not with this permanent ache that I have-I think I'm living just this side of denial for the time being. Maybe that is okay? Or maybe it's not? I don't know, but for now, I am able to keep getting up and doing what needs to be done. Because really? There isn't anything else to do. 

Children still need to be cared for. 

Bills still need to be paid. 

Things I would rather not have to do have to happen.

Like it or not, life continues. There's no pause. No stopping. It just continues, even during those times you wish desperately that it wouldn't.