Is.aac is off at his friend's house for the evening. The kids are all in bed, which means I'm here in a quiet house. I love the quiet. It gives me a chance to write and reflect
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There are a lot of times when I feel myself being ruled by fear and shyness. To counter that, I try very hard to do the things I'd really like to avoid, not because I am trying to be strong but rather because I know that it would be easy for me to just wall myself up in a cocoon and not do anything at all. Some days take more fighting than others.
Today took a lot of fight.
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Lately I've been wondering where I fit in. That's probably because I have no idea where I fit anymore. I don't know how to describe the feeling other than to say that it just feels like no one truly gets me. Can we all say midlife crisis?
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I found some shoes today that share my name. It's almost like purchasing these shoes is a must. I mean, we have the same name! Plus they are on sale. It would be worth it just to be able to tell people they were made just for me. I could make up a story about how the designer must have met me somewhere and was so inspired by me to make a shoe for me. It could even be true. How would I know? lol
Sadly, they don't have my size. Oh well.
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Random thoughts for a quiet night.
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3 comments:
While I don't know you in real life, I can say you at least belong in the blogging world. Your comments have provided me with much comfort and encouragement and I am truly grateful for that.
Too bad they didn't have your shoes in your size. You may have to go back and check again. Can you order them? How cool in that!
Find those shoes. Try google or ebay baby !
I hope you start feeling like yourself soon.
You fit in so many places....it's just hard to see it sometimes.
ok - the shoes are a must - squeeze your tootsies into a half size smaller or wad up some cotton in the toes for a half size up - WHO gets shoes in their name?? YOU DO!
i often times feel like i don't fit in either. and sometimes our lives parallel -- i was a cheerleader in HS and dated the football captain (though it didn't work out) and went on to things - but here in cali - sometimes i search for my "where do i fit"? and wonder if others feel this same way or i am just odd?
it is in a way - comforting to know you feel this way too sometimes. you are not odd, and if fact you inspire me sometimes. you give me courage to face things or even try things i would have just thought about sometimes.
you fit right in at you.
julie2007
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